Wednesday, June 1, 2011

lol fuck here we go again... resurrecting this blog again... welcome to the new life in Laguna (again)

lol this is the 3rd time that I will resurrect this shit again. too many things were happened since the 2nd time i resurrect this. I did my job in proving on the natural re-population of wildlife in the 9 hectare mining rehab forest of Guintalunan Pit No. 4 in the mining site of Rio Tuba Nickel Mining Corp. in Rio Tuba, Bataraza, Palawan. I also took part in the interview with Jackie Aquino and Dir. Zuniga on the special show of DENR's "Tao't Kalikasan" which was shown in NBN 4 last April. This show was a series of countering those false accusation and biased reporting by the anti-mining advocates of no2mininginpalawan led by Ms. Gina Lopez of ABS-CBN.

Yeah ABS-CBN... remember Abner Mercado's show Krusada? the show initially used research in order to analyze issues like mining in Palawan but turns out to be a tool for a one-sided jackass bias reporting with purely anti-mining sentiments. But what i hate most of ABS-CBN is the confrontation with me and one of their crew, Beth Maclang. i learned from my friends in Mines and Geosciences Bureau that she was a hardliner anti-mining advocate in Palawan. i told her that she must ask my dad, Dr. Bibiano Ranes, regarding about the operations in the Mine Rehabilitation and Reforestation Unit... not our laborers. but deep inside of me that she is searching for holes and use it as attacks against responsible mining. She then said "wala ba kaming karapatang magtanong?!" after a brief argument she went to every people in the premises (including our bosses) and talking shit against me. My dignity went down but i still won't give up so i came to her again and again told her to ask my dad if she wants information about mining rehabilitation but she replied "Hindi na ako makikinig sa'yo... lalo na BATA ka lang. BATA ka lang!"

I will never forgot those words. I cried until the day falls and the night sky blankets the town. My depression overwhelms myself... ~that i pissed off and replied my girlfriend with capitalized letters after she thought this was just a little incident. I am very sorry to my girlfriend (who's now my ex-girlfriend) because of that. Wherever you are... I am saying this again that I am very very sorry...

I request my dad to have my break... a vacation but he only granted it to me weeks after the NBN 4 interview. i got a chance to see two hardcore shows in a night. also... i spent some time with my girlfriend but days later she asked if we just be friends. heartbroken... my depression made our relationship worse and got into total break up. yeah all the shit build up in my head. those tiring moments while working in Palawan, dad's harsh words on me, the confrontation with the ugliest bitch (inside and out) i ever saw, betrayals of some of our trusted laborers, undergraduate status for 7 years (yeah i never finished any of the 5 courses i took while in college) and the repeated tragedy on my lovelife. i got my right hand bruised boxing at those glass windows.

sorry my hardcore friends... i lost my P.M.A. in Palawan

then i remember my ex's words to me... she told me that i must pursue Anthropology. so in the midst of confusion and depression i asked my mom and dad to quit my work in Palawan and continue my study at U.P. Open University (so after a year i can transfer to U.P. Diliman and take B.A. Anthropology). And my 3 weeks vacation turned into a permanent settlement here in Los Banos.

I am rebuilding myself. Resurrecting the former glories of my band Dilapidated Buko Pie and we are now planning to play on different shows after we master our songs through studio jamming. Still i am right here waiting on that readmission shit after the school told me that i got "AWOL" (PAKIUSAP LANG SABIHIN NYO NA KUNG MATATANGGAP PA AKO ULE O HINDE DAHIL MALAPIT NA MATAPOS ANG ENROLLMENT! SHET!). ohh and my buddies in Drillface records are also planning to write zines after we were inspired by the anticipations to the Zine Convention at the Kalye Art Gallery last April 16.

So guys... watch out for my band which i founded 2 years ago play live as a combo band.

To my ex-girlfriend. I can't believe you are moving on so fast but i still doubt it. YEAH! but whatever we may i will never forget those good inspiring words you told me before. So, don't you ever think you are not helping me to be a better man. You are the most special girl i had in my life. My personality maybe weak but i know inside me i'm a strong man... stronger than yours. We can make it better but the rapture between us was so great everyday that even now it's like you are forced to talk me whenever i say hi-how-are-you to you and it seems that it is not the Yayang i first talked to into the wee hours. You seemed to be very far away right now. You don't care. May Allah bless you always.

On the issue of mining in Palawan. YOU KNOW THIS SHIT STILL HAUNTS ME HERE IN LAGUNA. After the graduation in UP Los Banos, i met my former classmate Louigie Centeno. We say "hi! kamusta" at each other. he learned that i was just arrived from Palawan. he introduced me to his girlfriend who's from Puerto Princesa City. We greeted cheerfully but when she learned that i worked in a mining company, the world drowns into Armageddon. Her face turns into bitter and told me "ay sorry anti-mining kame doon". I replied with my a smile "sorry pro-responsible mining kame hehehe". They left and said "sige! nice meeting! hehehe!" but his girlfriend's face is just like somewhat ate a serving of Ampalaya omelette. I pity her for she acted like that to me in front of her boyfriend, who is my long time classmate in High School. Tangina hindi na siya nahiya. Yeah i need to contact him and tell my dismay over his girlfriend.

I am tired of protecting responsible mining. I am tired of explaining things again and again. I am tired of open up my netbook and show my wildlife research presentation without my dad's permission to the people just to enlighten them. I am tired of on the spot debate. I am not lucky. I was bound to explain these things because i myself saw the truth that mined out area are not worthless piece of crappy land but with the help of our ever-loving, ever-spending company we can bring back it's nutrients by putting organic fertilizers and so putting back the native forests that once been there.

To anti-mining advocates in ABS-CBN... especially Ms. Gina Lopez. You know what you and your colleagues made me turned off. i feel disgusted after years of watching shows in your channel. Made me laugh and learn in many of your shows but the rumors of biased reporting were true (and i saw it with my two eyes.) and that made me sick. very sick! because i believe that what you are doing is what Marcos did to the media during his tyrannous reign. I talked to Joe de Castro of ABS-CBN Southern Tagalog while on a PAL plane bound for Manila and he said to me that what you did made commotions to the people in the station. You guys are using ABS-CBN as a tool for your close-minded group. "Lahat ng istasyon dapat hindi bias ang ni-rereport" ~ This is what Mr. de Castro told me. So Fuck you, Fuck Abner Mercado, Fuck ugly Beth Maclang, and Fuck no2mininginpalawan. Palawan is just an island like any island but with floras and faunas that can be found in Sabah, Malaysia and not in other parts of the Philippines. Ang kokorni nyo!